Friday, December 08, 2006

Lucky - What's that?

To misquote Clint Eastwood: Do you feel lucky? So much has been happening here and it's not the lucky feeling I have been having. Maybe it's the when it rains it pours feeling I have been having. Lets see, in the past couple of months well since August I would say. First, one of our cars gets damaged. No, it wasn't an accident mind you. I ran out to put money on a deposit for the kids birthday party at Shoprite and when I came back out my husband's car had this big dent on the door. So much dented that we had to get insurance involved. The entire door needs to be replaced which, of course, my husband still hasn't brought in for servicing.

My husband gets laid off again. This is the 2nd time this year. Our finaces have dewindled down to almost nothing. We are struggling to make ends meet. Luckily he has started a new job and I'm hoping things will get better.

The kids are in their terrible two stage. Lots of whining, crying and fighting. There are days I feel like I'm going to really lose it as the noise level in this house is unbelievable. I look forward to the time they go down for naps and the time they go to bed. Am I bad mom? I just struggle to make it through the day. I lost my helper so I'm a bit stressed. She used to come by 6 hours a week. I'm behind on all the chores and just so tired.

Not only that, my husband has developed some medical issues which I am so praying that they are not serious. I worry all the time and pray that G_d doesn't take my husband away from me. No, he doesn't help out with the kids that much but he works very very hard to provide for us. We could not have all the things we need without him. There is no way I could work as day care would cost way too much for the triplets.

So will I buy a lottery ticket. Heck, no! So much has been negative around here that I doubt very much that we would win anything.


glynis said...

I pray that things will ease up a bit for you...and NO, you are NOT a bad mom because you sometimes want to lose it. We've all been there and you've got it tripled. Be assured that things do eventually turn around!

mkiser said...

I just have to say, I don't know how you do it with triplets. Period. ESPECIALLY during the terrible twos. And I won't lie to you. Threes are just as bad. I hope all turns out all right with everything. With two, I can't wait until 8 or 9 rolls around with them in bed! So I can do my own thing. I work full time, and don't get to spend time with them ... so I feel guilty....wait, I am blogging on YOUR blog! LOL, sorry.... I will have you in my thoughts and prayers.

Monica said...

I'm so sorry you're going through so much right now. As a mom of twins, I can relate to some of the struggles there, but you have an even heavier load with the triplets. You will be in my thoughts as well.

loonyhiker said...

Sorry things are rough for you right now. Just hang in there. When my daughters had major mental health issues my hubby and I kept telling each other - when you get to the end of your rope, just tie another knot in it. I know that many times I wanted to run away from home! You are not a bad mother! If you were, you wouldn't care whether you were or not. Don't be so hard on yourself! You are in my prayers!